If I had a magic wand and could change anything, the first thing I would change is the way I look. I have been overweight my entire life. I’ve lost weight at times, but I’ve never reached a point where I felt truly comfortable in my own skin. The struggle isn’t just about the number on the scale—it’s the battle in my mind, the constant pull of bad habits, and the frustration of knowing what I should do but not having the willpower to do it.

My biggest downfall is nighttime eating. Once Ken goes to bed, it’s like a switch flips, and I start binge eating. I tell myself every night that I won’t do it, that this time will be different. But before I know it, I’m mindlessly snacking, and the cycle continues. I wish I could break free from it. I wish I could look in the mirror and see someone I’m proud of—not just for how I look, but for having the discipline to take care of myself the way I deserve.

Beyond my weight, I wish I could walk normally again. Ever since my fall in 2020, when I broke my femur, life hasn’t been the same. The pain is constant. Walking any distance without my cane is nearly impossible. I miss the freedom of movement, the ability to go places without worrying if I can physically handle it. I see people walking effortlessly, and I envy them. I long for that ease, that ability to move without thinking about every single step.

There are other things I would change if I had that magic wand, but these are the ones weighing on me the most right now. I know there’s no real magic fix, but maybe, just maybe, writing this down is a step toward change.

How about you? What would you do with a Magic Wand?

Eydie